Monday, May 11, 2009

confusing stars for satelites

i have always never ever felt close to people. close as in really close where you'd disclose things about yourself willingly and trustingly. i have never and dont think i can do that. and then i worry and think about how i am not close to people who i call my friends, or how i feel like i am never really accepted or feel a sense or belonging. how contradicting.

then again, i can never, i doubt i'll be able to open myself up to people. it's like giving them a pathway to walk in, trample their way through, and walk out. or maybe im too much of an individual. maybe im just selfish. i dont know.

i have always never really felt a sense of belonging anywhere-
maybe i think too much.

the less i see, the less i understand.
the more i see, the less i understand as well.

i hate change;
but i know i am changing as well.

the unkindest cut of all @ 3:44 AM