Monday, April 28, 2008

i will follow you into the dark.

so they lost-

it was deja vu watching them play. goosebumps pricked my skin and my heart beat faster and faster in anxious anticipation. the same court, the same situation. i remember how i didnt play well, how my legs felt like they weighed a ton and i was unable to drag them across the court even though i wanted to. i recall how i gave up from the start and lost my focus. i recall staring at the ground, trying to pick dirt off my shoe as some of my teammates cried, as rivera talked to us. i recall how i felt i didnt deserve to cry because i knew i put in minimal effort and then i beat myself up for days after.
countless wishes that i could turn back time, re-live the moments and give my very best for every game.
i miss the tournament season, the trainings, the games, the countless times we fretted and waited in anxious anticipation together before a game. the team, the bond..
i am really glad that we are still together. so so glad and thankful.

but i know that there'll be much more that they'll takeaway from this enitre expereince.

i know i did.

i love srjc basketball.

the unkindest cut of all @ 10:55 PM