Tuesday, August 01, 2006

i believe in karma.

what goes around comes around.
perfect sense.

you wouldn't be stupid enough to be good to someone who doesn't appreciate it, would you?

UGH.
uber stressed.
PW, art, math, piano.
someone tell me what i'm doing.
tell me what i've come this far for.

tell me what do i do, now that i've lost sight of my purpose and direction.
all that's been driven into me -
STUDY HARD.
PASS YOUR ALEVELS.
DONT WASTE YOUR TWO YEARS.
yeah sure.
easier said than done.

but then again,
it's easier than knowing where i'll be heading next.

now, why did i ever choose to take H2 art and math in the first place?
and why play the piano?
dumbdumbdumbdumbdumbdumb.

piano exam in 3 weeks.
havent got all my pieces down.
dont get a shit about oral.
get so heated up everytime i play.
i know, she knows, i cant do it.
she said, "so what do you want then? to quit, or to continue?"

dont get me wrong.
i love music.
i love the piano.
but what can i do?
some just do not have IT.
that God-given talent.

so practice makes perfect.
but time is another luxury that i do not have on my hands.
the earilest that i get to go home on a non cca day is 4.30.
and when i end early - cca.
tired and drained by the time i drag my feet home, how the **** do i find the energy to exhuast my "luxury"?
most days go by with neither homework done, nor tests studied for.

so this is JC life eh?

i hate tuesdays.

the unkindest cut of all @ 7:38 PM