A TRIBUTE TO NETBALL
thinking back, the thing that made my life in secondary school was netball. the thing that shaped my life, affected my mentallity and conduct, was netball.
it was through netball that i learned how to fight.
dicipline.
determination.
dismay.
tears.
pain.
how fate can twist itself against you anytime it wants to.
how unexpectedly things turn out.
spirit.
teamwork.
FRIENDSHIP.you gain some, you lose some.
i lost my freedom and free time.
lost some friends when we drifted because of our different lives and schdules.
lost what could have been, lost what that was.
but what i gained is irreplacable.
magical.
the experiences.
the feel.
all that we went through..
the joy, the tears, the pain, the happiness, the sorrow, the rain.
a collage, an array of mass feelings and emotions..
you can't help but love ad hate it.
priceless.
my own breath in my ear, the perspiration streaming down my face, the fatigue in my legs, the sun glaring down at me. yet, i find the strength to fly, to run, to leap.
the freedom and elation of literally flying down the court, intercepting my opponent's ball, passing it on to my teammate. my job done for the moment.
it all pays off.
i miss that feel.
i miss the support and trust.
i miss the pressure (yes, even that) that made me fear and push myself.
but that was then.
im now so uncharacteristically me.
HAH.
oh yes. i still look back and remember how i screwed up as C'div Captain. how i let both my coaches down. how i wasn't able to lead my team to glory.
and then, they ignored us. they made us feel so tiny and insignificant. so small. so useless. so unloved. so..
we lost by 1 freaking goal.
HAH.
i still recall it all vividly in my head.
that was sec 2.
then the air cleared and what happened was put aside.
but i know we were still somewhat 'unforgiven', like the black sheep of the herd.
but.. all in the name of experience, right?
so again, you gain some, you lose some.